a week
many things have changed
i think i would view this as a turning point in my life
its hard to see how much you care till its not there
im glad that i was close to you before you left
i want you to leave peacefully
of course i've moved on from that
but you will always be in my mind,heart and my prayers
many people's will be too,im sure of that
2 weeks
i didnt expect you to be someone whom i would be with
easy said be close with
at first it was rough and tough
but now we are one
i feel that i really found my "other me"
and im really sure of that
i've changed your life a lot you tell me
i hope you will be there for forever
and i know this will last for long
dont worry
things will be fine
my mind will be in peace one day
as i want arwah to be happy for me
i didnt get to tell him i was with you
but i know right now he is watching over me
i love both of you
right now

when the first day i saw you, i thought you were the one of thoese "typical" guys who would be a pain to have, you didnt talk to me at first. and it didnt help that you were in a different group as me, then fate made us in the same group for our life skills project, then we bonded, and i remember when we stayed late at school to finish our project, i still remember the first time we talked about stuffs and suchs,then i knew that you were not what you seem, like the saying "dont judge a book by its cover" from there i started to be close with you, we would talk about anything and everything, we clicked instanly, then we talk about our past and oh how i found out that we had a lot of things in common, then you knew about my ex which was your schoolmate's little sis, that was funny, and the times you me and shakir went to live & loaded together, i didnt thought you would like gigs and you surprised me again, you enjoyed it. then i had a crush on one of our schoolmate, i asked to to help me get her email and number, and you did what some cant, and know im close to her because of you, we wanted to watch force vomit tonight, but now, you are gone, i still cant accept it that you left us just like that, you told me that you cant wait to head to poly but will be missing us, and i still remember you asking some of us this question " will you guys miss me when im gone?" and i answered,of course we will miss you but its not as though we wont see you when you are in poly, but now, you are gone, not in poly but in my life, you brought me joy and laughter that not many could bring to my life, i love you so much, and i still remember you hugged me when we saw the last time, so how i wished i could hug you for one more time, i still cant believe that you left us haikal,you were the one friend i wish i could have forever, now that you are gone, i cant say to you how much you meant to me, im really going to miss you haikal,we all are ='((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

its almost 3am,im sleeping soon,im happy right now
thanks to myself,crazy uh thanking myself for making myself happy
oh well,i told myself this a few times, i really need to do this
well,the thing is, i have no time,but it is still important
i really need to change this two important stuffs
i really need to change my atm card and my ic
both are turning into jigsaw puzzle!!
ahahah
oh yeah,to rub it in, man u lost 2-0,got two players sent off and liverpool won 5-0 and gerrad grabbing himself a hat-trick.. how awwwsomeee :D

13 more daysssss to OASIS! weeeee~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!

this is sad
but i feel that the people i know the most are the most dissapointing people i have in my life right now
now i understand why a friend left them
oh well, at least i have others to look forward to

the 14th of march 2009, the best so far
and this is my 105th post.

i really miss hugging someone i love, when was the last i hugged a girl? errrr... a year ago? damn,seriously, i need to feel that warm hug from someone i really care & love, very mushy uh? i know.. but what to do? this is how i really feel.and what was i thinking about doing "that"? damn i need to set my mind straight

time to brainwash my mind and my soul(cehhhhh!)

i got to take criticism and make me a better person,but i still havent figure out how to.any kind of criticism has always bring me down,makes me lose hope anf give up easily,that the problem with me,i cant handle criticism well.i really need to do something about this,but im sometimes really prone to mistakes and some people dont have the fucking patience to accept me for what i am,people say that noboday is perfect and i cant understand why some people are so naive thinking that everyone should be like them,im getting out of my point am i?what i am trying to say is that i really need to change my mindset of getting fucked from left right up and down from this kind of people and use it to my advantage.

on a lighter note,or maybe a bit of shading,nevermind what i said,i am cashless right now!some people still owe me money and havent paid,im no loan shark but hey,you said you wanted to pay,so cmon!because i need the money for two very important reasons, one being that i need it for my practical lesson and the next REALLY important reason is that OASIS IS COMING TO SINGAPORE 5TH APRIL!!please people..before i turn to a loan shark >=( [O$P$] jeng jeng

tommorow crackerjack is performing at cineleisure at 9pm,i want to head there, but now,there is no one who wants to go, i mean i havent asked anyone yet and next week is my exams,what timing is all this things happening? haha thats all people,bye,get lost,sleep if you are reading this late at night,go and pray if you are reading this duirng praying hours...bla...bla...bla...bla...

oh well, had my last(i know,im sad too) store meeting and talking about out coffee presentation.i dont remember the date we will be having it but hey.. do come down ok? im in charge of the games!(musical chair? hahaha!) and i got tips again,how much?lets just say i got enough to buy me a nasi & a drink =D

so after the meeting,me haikal & shakir went to L&L,we were rushing but thank god we made it there ! hahaha the first few bands were alright until west grand came on.. wooooo! btw i wore slippers going there! how great am i? haha

exams are in a week and im 50% prepared for it, my e maths is alright but mr wee nai's module, im having a lot of doubts about it

wish me luck then.. till here..

people will appericate someone's prescence if they are not there, how typical of you to feel that way,goodbye

thanks to fiza, haikal(my classmate), firah, shakir, hafiz(my classmate), dil, sheena, zura(ex-classmate), manda, beng, dan, mel for the birthday wish by text msg me! love you all! XD
thanks to dan(my classmate), salleh, seha, ira-shaz(err.. even though i didnt even talk to you?), shakir & frendo(both my classmates and for the stupid spam,fuckers), hairi, madel, hidayah(ex-classmate), estella, haikal(my classmate,PP! =D ), majid, my little sisiter, ramona(my ex-classmates's gf?), nur, shela, anusha, baleegha, sunil, azhar, sheena, renugah,suhailah(ex-classmate), hamza, susi, haikal(nordy baxter), sara(ex-classmate), gwen,petom, mr jeffrey aw, zilah(ex-classmate), fadhil, nabilah razak, liyana(ex-classmate), magdalene, wind(classmate), khaleeda, zheng zhong(classmate), addy cradle for the birthday wish at facebook,friendster & myspace! =D

im finally 20.shessssh.