tp or nyp? i have a higher chance in nyp..hmmmmmmmm

take note, this is going to be a sad post, so buzz off if you hate sad post.

since i had nothing to do just now, after webcaming with a long lost lover.*kening naik2*, i decided to bloghopping(which means go to random blogs), then i went to my beloved "boncet" beng's blog and click on "Zareeza", as i click it, i look at her profile picture, then i remembered, " isnt this the bestfriend of the late rakinah?" so i browse through her links and saw rakinah's link and decided to read her blog, i know its been a few months but when i read her last post, it makes me sad that zareeza had to lose a bestfriend at a young age.

rakinah is a simple girl,she was a schoolmate of mine at east view sec,she took 'O' levels too,and she got great marks as i was told by another close of of mine,oh how she could succed in the future.i cant imagine losing a close friend whom i have known for years.i have yet to exprience it, and i dont want to,not now.i can understand what zareeza feels right now,empty,as she said in her blog "another half of her is lost".losing a bestfriend is the worse thing someone could exprience.

another friend whom i just knew this year too, was quite close to her too, and i guess he took it hard too,he would be devastated,to be in his shoes right now,the feeling is worse than breaking up as you know that you cant do anything about it,be strong,to you know who you are.



in case you dont know who she is, shes the one beside the spongebob ballon,

Al-fatihah.




I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do

exactly 29 days from this day!



see ya!

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get it? you will. haha

i see friends fighting, i see no one replying

oh well, people are busy with thier lives,so why care ?
let this be the downfall of us.take care

im afraid, afraid of what the future holds for me, nothing is clear.

i see friends slowly fighting against each other. is this the end??

i hope it doesnt end here. for myself, i really dont know if i could make it on my own. im not getting any younger, and i dont want to follow in the footsteps of some pakcik or apek who cant even feed himself. well, im turning a year older in 5 months. not that far uh?hahaha,no more being a teenager ait?

on a happier note,my beloved football club, liverpool, beat our rivals, man u. hahahahahaha, i just love seeing the face on my brother's face when his team lost,berbatov? haha you were good,for the first 5 mins! hahaha!

oh well, you see, holidays are here and my post are getting crapier day by day!

buka with classmates at beach road =D

dear oh dear,nothing is really making sense nowadays,i hope you understand what im doing,for the best for you and not me.dont fall to the same situation as i did a year ago.take care

like ali said, thats life for you..

holidays are fuckkkking here people! and after just two days, i feel bored already! luckily i found a job to occupy my time.

so another day with star & kel, at first we slacked around ernyvoid,and due to the time moving soooo slow that if we wait till buka, i would have a beard.so star suggested that we head to OCH,so we were like alright anything goes.then we thought to ourself,it just stop raining,surely the floors will be wet and the place will be so muddy and there is nothing there,so another idea poped up! kel suggested that we took a random bus and head to wear the bus would take us! so we took the bus 28 and headed to toa payoh,yes,nothing better to do ah? oh well,no life mah!haha,then we headed back to tamp while i head back home, and the time was like 645? yeah, so swee swee for breaking fast? haha and yeah, i saw cassandra on my way home, didnt expect her to say hi to me. that was my friday for you my people!

would people still recognize me if i look like this? hmmm haha

East Coast Team Building(290808)

i feel that the human brain or mind or whatever is that we use to judge someone is sometimes or most of the time not fair. and i have been victim to this kind if thinking by a few people i know. why dont people judge the person in the present while they judge the person for what they are in the past? lets say for an example, this someone used to be a two faced person and making use of his or her friends, while realising his or her mistakes, he or she changed for the better, but being known for his or her ugly past, meeting up with new friends would be like climbing mount everest, which means that people would still judge the old person rather than the current person.and i tell you, no one is perfect,as i been both a criminal and victim of this kind of thinking, i must that everyone deserve a chance to prove him or herself. everyone deserve a second chance dont they?

on the other hand, i had a busy week last week,yes,get it? and i met a lot of my friends whom i havent seen for months,yes,for it is nice to see them again.but still there are a few whom i have yet to see, like dot & dot & dot..oh well, some other time then.

events i had last week
-Friday,Team Building,East Coast
-Saturday,Baybeats,With Guss & Lan
-Sunday?
-Monday,Start Of Fasting Month,Sending Someone Away
-Tuesday?Is NOW!

ok,i upload the pictures as soon as i get them alright? till here,i have to get ready for my final year exams,'O' Levels and finding a job(not sure whether mad jack still wants me or not).
take care..

I Miss;
HBT
COS
Bestbuddy
Mel
Deedee
YOU

=D

But still 17.. hmmmmm hahahaha!