>=D

2010-03-05T01:47:00.000+08:00

sorry this was late but thanks for the celebration guys

2010-01-27T02:15:00.000+08:00

have you ever regretted saying or doing something knowing that you could did or do something about it and you cant let go of the regret? well, i am feeling it right now, please tell me why i cant let you go, its not that i love you or what, or maybe you are hard to let go, like a friend? whom i really really like? we had this chemistry, please give me one chance before you leave? =((

2010-01-22T02:08:00.000+08:00

i feel like typing something, but i dont know where to start?

2010-01-17T19:12:00.000+08:00

whens your solo album coming out? your brother is coming out with one soon

2010-01-13T02:20:00.002+08:00

so much for not blogging anymore

feb the number 21,
march graduation, class chalet, BANGKOK

then from there onwards, i dont know, work?
then NS?

and i want to make music again. so much for reopening the interest in it guys

>=(

2009-12-23T15:14:00.001+08:00

dot dot dot

2009-12-16T02:31:00.001+08:00

http://dyyhadii.tumblr.com/

2009-10-26T03:47:00.002+08:00

im blogging again, but not here

2009-08-17T01:18:00.003+08:00

goodbye blog, it was fun while it lasted, i dont think i need you anymore,
maybe ill will post a random rant or two but expect anything more than that,
friends and love ones, please find me to know my recent activites ,
i will link some blogs/websites for your pleasure or entertaiment,
i will bring my tagboard back and leave a msg if you want me to link you or something

yours truly
dyy hadi

2009-08-09T01:38:00.003+08:00

i feel like blogging right now

things have been like a river, flowing without any rocks in the way, im feeling content i guess, (macam paham aku nye last line)

i wanna talk about this "topic" which have been bothering me for awhile, since i left my secondary school days, i've met different kinds of people and i must say, its hard to be with all kinds of different people and try to agree with them to what they have to say, cause i know people who loves music, sports, bikes and many other kinds of interest/hobby, so sometimes i wonder, can one person be all? i think there is a possibility it could happen, but it would take a lot of hard work to do that, imagine someone having a band and the next day have a football match then the following day have a bike competiton, thats why human stick to one kind of hobbies or interest.and the hardest part is that, when one side have something to say about the other side, when one side doesnt understand the other side, you get what i mean? it bothers me because i lovee all three, and maybe i think too much haha

2009-07-01T01:19:00.002+08:00

hello sorrow
you have come to play
to make my day
to turn light into dark

never have been this low
time moving real slow
hope to feel this time
with all your might

you giggle
you enjoy
im nuts
im sober

you are something
something i cant fight
cause you are me
yes i am you

im going nuts,can you understand what im trying to say people?

2009-06-30T00:00:00.002+08:00

what kind of life do you want to live in? the happy go lucky guy who fullfill his time enjoying life to the max knowing that if he would to die he knows that he enjoyed life the way he wanted or the serious guy who get everything that he wishes for and fullfill his goals in life and when when he die he knows that he had done everything he wanted to do in life?

side track i have watch transformers revenge of the fallen and i must say i dont mind watching it again at the movies cause its worth every penny i spend on, everything was just nice, shia, megan fox,the robots,the story line, the action scenes,the comedy 9/10 i must say
go watch it!!

2009-06-20T21:14:00.001+08:00

the more you hold something back, the more it will get worse, here is my message for both of you, if i turn out worst than what you thought, blame yourself for holding me back, yes both f you mom and dad

2009-06-15T23:14:00.005+08:00

first i want to have hair like the picture below,

then i want to perform on stages like this,

but its all in my wildest dreams right now, :(

2009-06-08T02:05:00.002+08:00

even though she is far, i think she is the closest to HBT who knows me inside out,

its you syafirah, since you kindly wrote about me in your blog, now is my turn.
yup, like you said, we dont see eye to eye that often but we keep in touch with each other, thank you for technology. we share stories from family to friends to love life.thank you for being my listening ear. we should hang out soon.

2009-06-02T22:50:00.002+08:00

in their eyes, im still a kid
in my eyes, i see no prize
what can i do?
i have to do something?
but to what extent?
sometimes feel like running
but to where?
who will be there?
and this doesnt help when a girl kept pestering me
how annoying
what a life i have
sorry for the emo post,
goodnight people
enjoy the videos i just posted in my videos box
thanks :)

2009-05-31T00:53:00.002+08:00

since now i got the time in the world, i really really want to express what is in my mind now from happy things to sad stuffs to people i want to slap their faces..

ok first is the happy thoughts,errrr... holidays are near? errr... my face is back to normal but the scar is still there? errr..step 1 is clear, now to step 2 XD, see.. i dont have many happy thoughts now, ok yah! i slept the whole day(saturday) like a freaking pig! niceeeee
i got nothing to be sad actually to tell you the truth, more like content,is that the right word to use it?

ok this is the "i want the slap the faces of this people" thoughts, its not only happening to people i dont know but to people i know too, before i say anything, i would like to say sorry first if i offended any of you reading this section where im going to say many bad things bout this type of people,
i cant stand this kind of people. what kind of people you ask? the people who get really good grades and still got the balls or for girls no balls to say this(for example this particular person got an A for their maths and his/her score was 80) "ehhhh, i could have gotten full marks if i didnt do this bla bla bla" WTF??!! you got an A!! what more do you want? if you still got full marks, does it change the grade? yes? of course its a NO fucker!! this is what you call greedy and fucking cunt, i really feel like slapping this people with a horse dick to make them wake up and realise to be happy with what they have, fuck. if i got a B i would be so happy, i think this kind of people would die not getting an A,or easy said full marks, thats why there are cases of students killing themself.. hahaa.. they are stupid, smart with the books but dumb with their own minds.
back to this kind of people, first they get good marks, now they are fucking selfish with the knowledge they have, for direct example, myself, i would ask this particular person for something i have no clue about, so this fucker would teach me, which i found out that person would teach me the wrong things, in the end i didnt learn anything, how fucking selfish is that? what? by teaching me i can get higher marks than you? wouldnt it be fun if i could? then i would be laughing at your fucking face.i dont understand this kind of people? what do you get from all this? good grades? then? go to good schools? then? get a job? hahahahaha.. if you are book smart but not street smart, you are fucking going to rot with the books you love so much. hahaha.
ok im done, i hope you fucking people read this, i want you to think like you have no tommorow.

tc!

2009-05-23T11:24:00.002+08:00

Day 7 of healing, i forgot to update about the 5th and 6th day of healing, let me sum it up in one post? on the 5th day of school, i went to school, giving a chance to see if i could make it at school, but it was troublesome, i had to wipe my wound for like every 5 to 10 mins, so i decided to stay at home to let the wound heal,

so day 6th, i was at home again, i do the usual stuff people would do at home, then at night, as i was cleaning up the wound, something amazing happened,i managed to like pull out the infection from the wound,i was smiling all the way because its now left for the wound to cover up and my face is back to normal.. wee~

day 7 and im at home,lets see the wound covering up.. haaaa.. im so happy, alhamdulilah =D

2009-05-20T23:26:00.004+08:00

Day 4 of healing, my cheeks has finally tone down, now its the infection turn to heal, and i think its going to be longer than the cheeks, im disgusted by the sight of it, hahahaha im going to school tommorow. thats all

my face NOW

2009-05-19T16:13:00.002+08:00

Day 3 of healing, its been doing great, my cheeks are back to normal, but my lips is a bit swollen and the infected area, is producing something disgusting which i would not want to describe it here.. wahahaha.. how i feel about this infected area? feels like taking a cutter and cut it, thats how i feel about it,

5 days staright i havent smoke, but i dont feel the urge to do it, wonderful! how about quitting? that would be nice ah? lets see.. my MC is done but i dont think i will be going to school tommorow, heeeeee.. enjoying my life at home, eating sleeping laptop tv then eating sleeping and it goes round and round again.. weee~~~~~... ok see ya XOXOXO <--HAHAHAHA!

2009-05-18T13:18:00.002+08:00

Day 2 of Healing, its been fine my cheeks has tone down, but the pain is still there but i must say it was a fast healing process, but still my lips are like angelina jolie, or even more sexy than hers! hahaha

i havent smoke for 3 days! wow,but i want to,but must let my face heal first then i can touch the "magic stick" wahahaha.. ok im bored at home, hi everyone

2009-05-17T11:10:00.002+08:00

my left side of my face is bloated, yes.. bloated, and you want to know why it became that way?
usually its due to infection or virus or something like that, but in my case, its due to my pimple!
yes,you saw it right my PIMPLE,so here is an advise for you or you who loves to "kopek" your pimple, DONT DO IT! i have evidence of what will happen if you do it, ask the picture from me alright?

2009-05-11T02:15:00.001+08:00

the thought of drinking has always come to mind
i wonder what it really feels getting drunk and talking like a fool
hahaha
wouldnt that be nice?
its like 50-50
should i waste all the years avoiding from it to start it now?
hahaha

2009-05-09T00:57:00.001+08:00

i need a new me, i need change
i need to clear off my bad habits
i need a new image for myself
but what will it be?any idea?

2009-05-02T09:49:00.002+08:00

the number is old
but my behaviour is not gold
the face doesnt tell the name
and the attitude is the same
i dont know how to change its way
but this is just the way it is

2009-04-28T00:55:00.001+08:00

Here's another sunday morning call
Yer hear yer head-a-banging on the door
Slip your shoes on and then out you crawl
Into a day that couldn't give you more
But what for?

And in your head do you feel
What you're not supposed to feel
You take what you want
But you won't get it for free
You need more time
Cos your thoughts and words won't last forever more
But i'm not sure if it ever works out right
But it's ok. It's all right

When yer lonely and you start to hear
The little voices in your head at night
You will only sniff away the tears
So you can dance until the morning light
At what price?

And in your head do you feel
What you're not supposed to feel
You take what you want
But you won't get it for free
You need more time
Cos your thoughts and words won't last forever more
But I'm not sure if it ever works out right
But it's ok. It's all right

And in your head do you feel
What you're not supposed to feel
When you take what you want
You don't get hope for free
You need more time
Cos your thoughts and words won't last forever more
And I'm not sure if it'll ever, ever, ever work out right
Will it ever, ever, ever work out right?
Cos it never, never, never works out right

will it ever work out right?

2009-04-22T00:48:00.003+08:00

school has been great,all the guys in the class have bonded together even more
now that we are in the second year, i feel that we are more laid back then last year,
oh maybe the worst has yet to come? god knows.
and i have this feeling that is something is not right in my life right? what is it?
i feel empty somehow inside?it is times when im alone and i will wonder to myself,
is everything there for me right now? and my thoughts would be, no, you still have that HUGE empty space to fil in,what is it? this is what you get for eating medicine and not sleeping and eyes half open while watching videos of arctic monkeys peforming 505,what a nice combo to be 'high'
oh well,there goes another day, goodnight people, liverpool vs arsenal in a few hours

i almost forgot,today is my dad's birthday,errrr...how old are you? (:
hahahaha,happy birthday ayah,ily =D

2009-04-14T00:59:00.002+08:00

i love HBT

i love my ite classmates

i love my arwah haikal

i love my family

i love susu

but the one i love the most is "you know who you are" :)

happy 1th month my dear, ilysm =D

2009-04-10T01:40:00.002+08:00

i feel today(090409), the year 2006 rolling back, i talked to two of my friends which i remember after my N levels we used to chat a lot.hahaha hmmmmm..yah.. btw, my band is going to the studio soon, so watch out guys :D

for a hbt of mine,now i understand why HE treats you this way,i dont get it,why must you make people hate you when they did nothing to you?i really dont get it,you say you dont want people to change you, and now you want to change me?for?tell me?you hate people forcing you?now you are forcing me?i really dont get it,yah im 20,so?must i be a "20" year old?yah my parents are strict and i appreciate that,so what if im scared?so im your fucking target?let me set this straight,now you know why im feel like ignoring you too when you are online,why i dont say this to your face?because i know you wont listen.

2009-04-07T16:09:00.002+08:00

oasis made me so high that i felt like in another world, i want them to come again, rock singapore again, everything was perfect on that night, liam's voice was awsome,the music was as usual,spectacular and the crowd was the best i've seen,i even dare to say that singapore's crowd was better than wembley's crowd,awsome. i uploaded some pictures and two videos at my facebook,see how awsome it was XD XD
ok now i gtg,having store meeting later at hq(commonwealth) , so lazy mannnnnnnnnn -__-"

2009-04-04T21:02:00.002+08:00

so this week was my first week working at starubcks tampines, and i must say, its a high jump from parkway, and i think its going to take a lot of time to adjust to the "slam", shesssshhh.. if you were part robot and part emotionless human,you could really fit into the system hahaha,so yah,this tuesday would be my first store meeting with the tampines people.

i dreamt of you,i remember this huge field,you and me standing in the center of the field,we did not speak to each other,but i felt really happy when i was standing beside you,even though i knew it was a dream,are you telling me something?

2009-03-29T00:56:00.002+08:00

a week
many things have changed
i think i would view this as a turning point in my life
its hard to see how much you care till its not there
im glad that i was close to you before you left
i want you to leave peacefully
of course i've moved on from that
but you will always be in my mind,heart and my prayers
many people's will be too,im sure of that
2 weeks
i didnt expect you to be someone whom i would be with
easy said be close with
at first it was rough and tough
but now we are one
i feel that i really found my "other me"
and im really sure of that
i've changed your life a lot you tell me
i hope you will be there for forever
and i know this will last for long
dont worry
things will be fine
my mind will be in peace one day
as i want arwah to be happy for me
i didnt get to tell him i was with you
but i know right now he is watching over me
i love both of you
right now

2009-03-24T01:44:00.004+08:00

when the first day i saw you, i thought you were the one of thoese "typical" guys who would be a pain to have, you didnt talk to me at first. and it didnt help that you were in a different group as me, then fate made us in the same group for our life skills project, then we bonded, and i remember when we stayed late at school to finish our project, i still remember the first time we talked about stuffs and suchs,then i knew that you were not what you seem, like the saying "dont judge a book by its cover" from there i started to be close with you, we would talk about anything and everything, we clicked instanly, then we talk about our past and oh how i found out that we had a lot of things in common, then you knew about my ex which was your schoolmate's little sis, that was funny, and the times you me and shakir went to live & loaded together, i didnt thought you would like gigs and you surprised me again, you enjoyed it. then i had a crush on one of our schoolmate, i asked to to help me get her email and number, and you did what some cant, and know im close to her because of you, we wanted to watch force vomit tonight, but now, you are gone, i still cant accept it that you left us just like that, you told me that you cant wait to head to poly but will be missing us, and i still remember you asking some of us this question " will you guys miss me when im gone?" and i answered,of course we will miss you but its not as though we wont see you when you are in poly, but now, you are gone, not in poly but in my life, you brought me joy and laughter that not many could bring to my life, i love you so much, and i still remember you hugged me when we saw the last time, so how i wished i could hug you for one more time, i still cant believe that you left us haikal,you were the one friend i wish i could have forever, now that you are gone, i cant say to you how much you meant to me, im really going to miss you haikal,we all are ='((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

2009-03-23T02:55:00.002+08:00

its almost 3am,im sleeping soon,im happy right now
thanks to myself,crazy uh thanking myself for making myself happy
oh well,i told myself this a few times, i really need to do this
well,the thing is, i have no time,but it is still important
i really need to change this two important stuffs
i really need to change my atm card and my ic
both are turning into jigsaw puzzle!!
ahahah
oh yeah,to rub it in, man u lost 2-0,got two players sent off and liverpool won 5-0 and gerrad grabbing himself a hat-trick.. how awwwsomeee :D

13 more daysssss to OASIS! weeeee~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!

2009-03-19T03:34:00.000+08:00

this is sad
but i feel that the people i know the most are the most dissapointing people i have in my life right now
now i understand why a friend left them
oh well, at least i have others to look forward to

2009-03-15T04:44:00.000+08:00

the 14th of march 2009, the best so far
and this is my 105th post.

2009-03-08T06:13:00.001+08:00

i really miss hugging someone i love, when was the last i hugged a girl? errrr... a year ago? damn,seriously, i need to feel that warm hug from someone i really care & love, very mushy uh? i know.. but what to do? this is how i really feel.and what was i thinking about doing "that"? damn i need to set my mind straight

time to brainwash my mind and my soul(cehhhhh!)

2009-03-06T02:10:00.003+08:00

i got to take criticism and make me a better person,but i still havent figure out how to.any kind of criticism has always bring me down,makes me lose hope anf give up easily,that the problem with me,i cant handle criticism well.i really need to do something about this,but im sometimes really prone to mistakes and some people dont have the fucking patience to accept me for what i am,people say that noboday is perfect and i cant understand why some people are so naive thinking that everyone should be like them,im getting out of my point am i?what i am trying to say is that i really need to change my mindset of getting fucked from left right up and down from this kind of people and use it to my advantage.

on a lighter note,or maybe a bit of shading,nevermind what i said,i am cashless right now!some people still owe me money and havent paid,im no loan shark but hey,you said you wanted to pay,so cmon!because i need the money for two very important reasons, one being that i need it for my practical lesson and the next REALLY important reason is that OASIS IS COMING TO SINGAPORE 5TH APRIL!!please people..before i turn to a loan shark >=( [O$P$] jeng jeng

tommorow crackerjack is performing at cineleisure at 9pm,i want to head there, but now,there is no one who wants to go, i mean i havent asked anyone yet and next week is my exams,what timing is all this things happening? haha thats all people,bye,get lost,sleep if you are reading this late at night,go and pray if you are reading this duirng praying hours...bla...bla...bla...bla...

2009-03-04T17:34:00.003+08:00

oh well, had my last(i know,im sad too) store meeting and talking about out coffee presentation.i dont remember the date we will be having it but hey.. do come down ok? im in charge of the games!(musical chair? hahaha!) and i got tips again,how much?lets just say i got enough to buy me a nasi & a drink =D

so after the meeting,me haikal & shakir went to L&L,we were rushing but thank god we made it there ! hahaha the first few bands were alright until west grand came on.. wooooo! btw i wore slippers going there! how great am i? haha

exams are in a week and im 50% prepared for it, my e maths is alright but mr wee nai's module, im having a lot of doubts about it

wish me luck then.. till here..

people will appericate someone's prescence if they are not there, how typical of you to feel that way,goodbye

2009-03-01T11:35:00.002+08:00

thanks to fiza, haikal(my classmate), firah, shakir, hafiz(my classmate), dil, sheena, zura(ex-classmate), manda, beng, dan, mel for the birthday wish by text msg me! love you all! XD
thanks to dan(my classmate), salleh, seha, ira-shaz(err.. even though i didnt even talk to you?), shakir & frendo(both my classmates and for the stupid spam,fuckers), hairi, madel, hidayah(ex-classmate), estella, haikal(my classmate,PP! =D ), majid, my little sisiter, ramona(my ex-classmates's gf?), nur, shela, anusha, baleegha, sunil, azhar, sheena, renugah,suhailah(ex-classmate), hamza, susi, haikal(nordy baxter), sara(ex-classmate), gwen,petom, mr jeffrey aw, zilah(ex-classmate), fadhil, nabilah razak, liyana(ex-classmate), magdalene, wind(classmate), khaleeda, zheng zhong(classmate), addy cradle for the birthday wish at facebook,friendster & myspace! =D

im finally 20.shessssh.

2009-02-23T16:22:00.001+08:00

*thinking to myself*
hello adulthood
bye teenager life
but......
there are still people who see me as a kid
who?
well they are close to me
they have seen me grown
well i cant blame them
oh well,
my mom asked me what i would like to get for my birthday
what should i get?
hmmmmmmmm..
i know!
i wont tell you guys what it is.hehe

(1+1)x10=?

2009-02-19T11:00:00.002+08:00

dear that someone,

i just wanted to knew you because you look like someone i know/knew, so i just randomly get to know you,we talk crap, we laughed at each other's lame jokes, we click instantly, and i was thinking to myself, when was the last time i felt this way? so i tired to get to know you better,at first it was hard, but slowly you opened up your heart and mind to me, and i knew that, you and me, are no different.after a while, i thought to myself,will it be lovely?will it work out? thats for us to know, right now, i only see you and me in this world

sincerly,
dyy =)

2009-02-17T03:15:00.001+08:00

just some random pictures? haha

2009-02-17T02:55:00.001+08:00

sleeping at 5pm to 6pm gives you sinful dreams, im not kidding

2009-02-16T02:39:00.001+08:00

there is happiness in every sad moment in life, guess i have to deal with a sad moment to have a happy moment. im blogging crap, sorry people =D

2009-02-05T23:44:00.001+08:00

haaaaaaaaaaaa... just watch, this is what i have been waiting fooooor!!
MUST MUST MUST MUST WATCH =D

2009-02-04T13:54:00.003+08:00

cover this song guys? =D

Helter Skelter - The Beatles

2009-01-20T00:35:00.002+08:00

slowly but surely this feeling will fade away
im slowly starting to give up
no signs or not even a hint
i dont know
cause right now i can find reasons to be happy without you
HBT?ite classmates?dee?smudge?nur?
these people can make me smile
can you give me that wide smile i need?
hopefully you will =(

2009-01-19T02:23:00.002+08:00

project project project!!!!
this is lifeeeeee-nat
al-natasha
natural disaster at simei, death toll 0, injured 0, found 1 cat lying there -______-"
XD XD XD

2009-01-12T01:51:00.003+08:00

results in a few hours, and i'll be checking it online? which make things even worse, im afraid right now, even worse than last year and how i felt when i was waiting for both of my N level results.
but im more eager to go to poly for some reasons,lets say many reasons ;)
wish me many luck pleaseeee... i want this to turn out right.
and also good to thoese waiting for their results like i am.
goodnight everyone =D

yesterday,two things happened which i didnt expect it to happen,yes,you must expect the unexpected. XD

"welcome to starbucks parkway"

2009-01-08T23:08:00.002+08:00

since i got my half pay,i got to buy stuffs which i really need right now
but i dont know where to get nice,cheap and unique stuffs
here is what i need
-shorts(kakis/bermudas/3/4)
-bag(backpack please,no sling)
-shoes
-two more polo tees

tell me tell me tell me tell me tell me tell me tell me fassssssssssssssssssteer!

another questions and this has nothing to do with what i need,its just i want to know from you people, and no craps please thank you.

what do you think of having a friend of a different gender who is much younger than you?
what do you think?is it bad?opinions people! go go go!

XD XD

2009-01-08T02:26:00.002+08:00

for fiza;try to figure out how am i feeling eh.. by listening to this song and see the lyrics. XD XD XD enjoyyyy!

2009-01-02T23:41:00.001+08:00

the heart say this the mind say that
the eyes sees the truth but the lips tell lies
im hearing false but understanding the truth
this post is for that someone,
i hope you do understand what im trying to say

2009-01-02T20:11:00.003+08:00

i know im kinda a bit late but HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL WHO HAVE BEEN READING THIS BLOG FOR THE PAST 2008. weeee.. 2008 is a fast and low year i must say.why i say that? i still remember the last min of 2007 when i was talking with someone till 2008 and we didnt notice it.haha

let hear the story of muhd hadi's 2008 aite?aite?(bebual mcm seorang tu)haha
the start of 2008, i was still working at SATS with kel & lan.we stopped around feb i remembered?oh working there made me open up my eyes to the worst "makcik" i have known in my life, i dont want to "malukan" dier so if you want to know ask me personally.then got my O levels results,you should know the rest.so i got to ITE tampines,my big brother's former school too.i was in mechatronics(cool name uh?yah cool habisan nye)and got to know that raj(my ex-classmate in sec 5) was in the same class as me.haha.then slowly HBT begin to form.hmmm.i took my private O level.hmmm. and finally,im like proud to say this, i was single throughout 2008! huahuahuahauahuahauhauahauhau! ok enough.

what is my new yeaR Resolution?hmmmmmmm..to make my 'R' peRfect!hahahahahaha. my otheR wishes foR this year is to pass my maths & science veRy well so that i can join my otheR fRiends in TP! get a licence(that was what i wanted last yeaR.)and foR bonus, a GF! hahahahahaha!
ok thats all, 2009 here i comeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.(notice all the Rs?)
oh i almost foRgot, im going to be a 20cents soon(phm2 je la eh koRang)
XD

2008-12-24T00:57:00.003+08:00

suddenly i feel so empty, i feel like im moving towards a wall which is not there.for the first time in my life i feel that nothing is important to me,not god,not friends not family, its like nothing really matters to me anymore.
never in my life i feel like im walking towards a hole without caring if i were to fall and die,i want to feel up my empty self with something but i dont have anything to fill it up with,what the fuck is wrong with me,people say i behave as though im not my age,not in the matured way but in the childish way,can i blame anyone for my childish behaviour?my parents?my friends?the people around me? i cant,like one said, you can go blaming everywhere but it wont change anything as you yourself are the one to blame,how bout my childhood?still i cant blame that?i want to change myself but when i change myself,people will slowly hate me,i tried to change to something i was not a few years back and almost half of the world hated me, but i know that was good enough to show me who my true friends were,now i being someone trying to please others,its my nature to do that,but its not bringing any benefits for myself,but how can i be so selfish,see how confused i am?i really want to change myself but to lose many things along the way is not the way.i cant please all around me cant i?but what can i do?i sometimes want to spill out my feelings to anyone of you guys but i feel like im a broken record playing through your ears,and yes i have told one that i dont have a particular person to spill all out cause i know that that person will get sick of me.i will see a pattern in my life,its either people will hate or love me.oh well,thanks blog,i know you are the only one i can talk to.im sorry guys,this is stupid of me.

2008-12-22T02:46:00.002+08:00

whats the use of having all the money in the world when you cant buy the one you want to love?
whats the use of being the smartest man on earth but you cant understand the one you want to love?
life is never easy, not even the riches and smart have it the easy way,they might even want to be poor or just plain dumb just to be happy.

had the sick week, i was having flu for 4 days in 7 days? yeah, but i dont know why when i work or hang outside, i feel fine, but still a bit sick,when im at home..water pipe!but im feeling a lot better right now as compared to the other few days.oh what a boring post,bye

2008-12-15T21:56:00.003+08:00

susu?

you know today is your day.

sooooooooooooooooo

happy birthday babe(its a female btw)

how old are you? 2? yup.. but you look fat as a 20 yr old.

hahaha.. its a blessing to have you in the house. XD

2008-12-11T13:58:00.003+08:00

now i regret deleting my previous blog,
damn, i remember that i had a lot of bad , good and ugly memories on that blog, i was in a haywire state when i deleted the previous blog, thats a bad thing about me, dont think before doing.

oh well no use as i cant bring it back. but i still remember some of the posts like when i first blog, i used many colours to post , yah, thinking back it was very very funny and my english on that particular post was... wow.. hahaha
then i remember that when i started blogging it was 2005 which was during my N levels, haha and during that time i didnt had any computer at home and was using my jiran's house computer and also my cousin's computer to update.haha.then i blogged bout how i didnt managed to get to sec 5, and the trouble of retaining.i remember the first day of 2006, i was so pissed off at miss santha at getting caught for short hair(imagine slope at the back and no fringe and STILL i got caught?) haha.how i got to know COE(later known as COS), and how i managed to bond with the class so quickly,oh great times

i had my first so called heartbreak post a few months later and how i got tags from friends giving me advise and etc.haha.to think of it, it was a wake up call for me as i slowly got to know more about how to really take care of a girl's heart(im not a master right now but at least i know im doing a good job CEHHHHHHHHHHHH)hahaha, how i learn to post long long long post thanks to nat(dpt name sikit eh boy XD) and also how to post crap stuff(thanks to star/buah) haha i also improve my english language(thanks to adlan), and also a bit of religious stuff (from wak din).and also finally how to post indirect post (from beng) XD.

as my blog got lots of readers, i remembered i post some stupid stuffs like me fighting with a apek?("you wait ah, i call my maid" wtf?) hahaha.how we always get caught at school for our "long" hair. i also post about how i met shikyn(the tall as me hot girl) and where we went and stuffs.oh oh sweet memories.

i also remembered how i post bout major football finals eg. champions league final 2006 and fa cup final 2006 where barcelona won the CL and liverpool won the FA cup and getting opinions from bloggers bout the performance and etc.another great memories.

i also remembered when i post about when we got our N level results and who made it and who didnt and meeting khairiyah for the first time on my N level results.. ahhhhh.. remember khai? ingat tak? hahaha and 2006 was also when i met haikal(kel) and lan and how we form the smudge and how we bonded together and made music under the void deck(now called ernyvoid), running play, the artist, four walls, how we went to boardwalk by accident.awwww sweet sweet memories.

2007 , wow, too much hatred , anger and karma in my blog, how i broke up with khai, what i did on my bdae, how i enjoyed being 18, how i met nabilah and how long i waited for her but in the end it lasted for 2 months only.
the first half of 2008 wasnt much better for me too, my failure for O levels, the worst bdae i had in my life, how i got close to someone but in the end we drifted apart and false hopes about me and nabilah getting back again.

the second half of 2008 and now im here with HBT, the best thing so far i had in my teenager life,why i say teenager life? im turning fucking 20 soon in 2 months time! adulthood here i come.but recently we(HBT) havent been seeing each other for a long time, but like a friend said, something good is worth waiting for right? cheers to that.

this second half of 2008 also brought me some of my old friends back to me, and i dont know why its like one by one they started to talk to me and did some catching up, like for example, my beloved childhood friend SAB, after so how many millions years not seeing each other, we finally caught up with each other this year, and on her special day too, her birthday, when i saw her after many years, all the childhood memories started to replay back in my mind and how stupid i was going MIA from you when we were in secondary school days.and we even stayed in the same flat! oh bad was that?like you said,slowly we are starting our own lives and we cant meet or see or talk to each other everyday.i hope we wont forget each other,i think you are the only one who have seen me change in many different ways,dont you SAB? XD

*judging(inside joke) hahaha! XD XD XD

what will be there for me in the future?i wont rather not know as i didnt expect my life to be this way so far and im happy for what i have right now,anything more will be a bonus? XD

2008-12-08T20:18:00.001+08:00

i think i have bipolar disorder? what do you think?

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bipolar_disorder

2008-12-06T02:05:00.002+08:00

we will never be like them or anyone of them

if we wish to be this way

its better that we move on with our lives

i don't see a point of us carrying on with this

just take note,if you know who i am referring to

open house at PP starbucks was alright i guess, i get to meet all the partners and get to know a few of them, and it started in a wrong tone as it rained heavily and we had to clear the puddles and wipe all the wet tables but as it got along, it was great.i don't have the pictures and i don't know who to ask for the pictures, only my third day in store training and i had my first open house.

alright thats all i have to say,hopefully life will go on,sorry if i have been to emotional in my post lately,thanks

2008-12-03T01:08:00.002+08:00

slowly but surely one by one is leaving

oh man, im feeling it

not that im the one dissappearing

i mean look at yourself

occupying time with useless junks and whatsoever

what am i trying to say?

i dont even know

im just updating for the sake of updating

see ya

fading slowly the feelings i am it is when will it end show

2008-11-27T03:39:00.002+08:00

why cant i be happy for the things i have right now and be sad at the things i dont? sometimes i feel that i neglect the little things i have because the little things that i have are the best things i have in my life right now.

im starting from square one.i want to bulid a new me.with some old heads coming back to my life and new ones helping me.im making a new circle.my circle of life

PS. im not a bunga ok you know who likes to call me that XD

2008-11-27T03:02:00.001+08:00

3Ds 2Ns With Cousins & Family To Malaysia

2008-11-25T01:23:00.002+08:00

actually i just came back a few hours ago from malaysia, and see! am i so nice to update you on where i have been going the past three days! XD

but the thing bout the holidays was... i didnt get to buy a freaking thing, i mean in terms of clothes.. if you know what i mean, but i bought lots of chewing gum which cost R30($14?) yah.. so puas aku chew2 ,later my cheeks have 6 pack! sweeeeeetttttttttttt!! and i bought a box of ciggs only.. how to.. ada banyak mata around me and i was the only one that smoke.. shessssssh, at least better than nothing.. we didnt managed to go to much place when we were on at cameron highland cause it was usually raining.what to do, musim hujan mah! but we manged to go to some beautiful places, relaxing enough for me, and i ate a lot man.. i think enough to cover for three days, which i ate for a day, get me? nvm.. but overall it was fun, going out with cousins and traveling together, maybe we will be going again next yr? im not sure..

pictures will be uploaded soon ok people?
and i havent decide wherther i want to go to school later..
if you are reading this right now and you see me online.. that means im "besarkan pantat" at home XD

2008-11-10T01:34:00.000+08:00

this is earth , by our friend guss

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

2008-11-09T01:29:00.002+08:00

before im 30.. i need to...

-collect enough money to live on my own

-get any type of transportation, either 4 wheels or 2 wheels

-perform at any concert which involves hundreds of people watching us(smudge)

-go overseas with all my close friends eg. europe or australia to be exact

-get a job which provides me with lots of cash!!haha

-have hair as long as a girl's.. possible whatttt

-get a girlfriend who can change me, guide me, show me, and teach me the wonders of life and of course marry her later in life ;D

-find all my lost cousins, i dont even know where to start!

-watch a match at my favourite football club's stadium..Anfield.. Liverpool!

-repay back my parents all the love and sacrifice they have done for me

-pray more

impossible? nothing is impossible.. XD

2008-11-05T02:44:00.002+08:00

sorry lovely readers who always read my blog, thank you so much, i love you all, feel like giving a huge bacin hug! who wants one? i know i haven't been updating frequently but what to do, i had my O levels maths & science a few weeks ago and i had put out my greatest effort out so whatever results i will receive,im proud that i prepared myself better than last year.

so what is happening in my life right now? im catching up with ite studies, thank god that i dont have any "simpati" teachers this term, i am also thankful that my maths teacher is interesting and also thankful that my friends are willing to teach me cause they have been doing the same thing over weeks.im writing this whole para as though i have won a huge awards. crap cake.

i have been selected for student seminar...(what's the thing call again aisah?), at first i thought it would be interesting to be learning new skills, but i found out today that the training will be held from jan 2009 to june 2009, lets see, i will be getting my results around mid-jan, and INSYALLAH, i will be posted to any poly, it would be april.. soooo.. HOW??!! tsk... this is what is in my and kals mind right now, we want to jump ship if we manage to get a high score on our Os.so yeah.we have to make a decision soon.time is against us!

oh well, i thought i would be stress free after O level.. but.. no.. this.. had.. too.. appear.. thanks.. eh..

airah, if you are reading this, dont worry, you have many friends like me! and yes. imy too XD

watch this!

2008-10-24T17:19:00.000+08:00

smudge is back? ;)

2008-10-15T01:42:00.002+08:00

yes star, i miss slacking at ernyvoid & boardwalk too, easy said, i miss slacking everyday with HBT, i miss wasting time under the void deck, talking cock, even things that arent funny we laughed as though it is the funniest thing in the world.since secondary school days were done, i must admit that i am one of them, we are starting to have our own lives. and thats so sad, even me and star, fuck, 7 years dude, stayback pon same kelas! hahaha, this sounds sooooo gay.. hahaha but before he had astuty, it would be always be me him taufik and guss, guss is now an MP, understand understood he cant see us that often. taufik is a working man now, so its rare to see him in daylight, so now i will always meet star, like once a week nowadays? damn.i dont want beng nat din to drift apart from me. the dunman guys, thank god that majid is in the same school as me, kel & dan? it is so rare to see the two of them, amanda? i think she has new friends.oh i want to rewind to when we just finished O levels.i miss that time

ipod commercial parody videos

2008-10-14T01:17:00.001+08:00

the first title of many posts

2008-10-11T16:09:00.002+08:00

stop me from this fall
help me pick myself up
so much have i missed
and its not stopping
im like a body without a soul
help me pick myself up
an unclear road in my blury eyes
what am i suppose to be
maybe i dont believe in the almighty
but he hasnt given me a sign
a sign he is around
help me pick myself up
please give me a huge star
a star that will bright me up
even in the darkest of hours

nice?hahaha

2008-10-09T12:41:00.005+08:00

thank god everything went smoothly,so we had the HBT & friends raya outing yesterday,how many people were there? too much, yes! a lot,overall,it was fun and majid as usual, his craps, and amir! hahahaha!

oh well,im lazy to update everything but like they say,let the pictures do the talking aite?

2008-10-05T02:03:00.004+08:00

so had my third raya outing with family yesterday

headed to choa chu kang first, saw my late grandfather's(father's) brother,looking at him sometimes reminded me of my late datuk,sedih you know. hahaha cause i was still young to understand what is death.moving on,headed to queensway,and i saw looking some lady looking like firah,yes firah, i saw someone looking exactly like you!i was shocked at first to see the lady,i had to look at her a few times to confrim that it wasnt firah. hahaha.then headed to bedok next,my mom's uncle,he was half paralyzed and telling bout his.... maybe i shouldnt say this here, tooooo personal..then headed to my kelas agama's house, then to my uncle's house then headed back home.

Os in a few weeks time and im starting to feel that i have no motivation on taking it? seriously,its hari raya, damn the timing, but i cant blame it cant i? if i want to go to poly,musnt i be motivated?oh well....

im still happy that i got gpa of 3, let me tell you the reasons why ok?
NO 1.im like 40% studying in class and 60% making the teachers mad
NO 2.i beat the mr "know everything", he told me he studied like a few months before the exams while i studied a few days..ok not a few days, a few HOURS before the actual paper itself and i got the same gpa as him.hahaha!
NO 3.i proved wrong to lots of people that saying that i would not get good marks.ha!look whos smart now?hahaha
but still,me mom having a high expectation of me,getting 3 is for her,is ok-ok only,it could be a blessing in disguise?thats my mom for you.haha

lastly,the previous post,if you dumb dumb dont understand it,im not in love,i dont like any girls right now,im just talking about a good friend of mine and whats her situation right now,bollocks.see ya!

ahhhhh,see anything strange bout this picture??(below)

2008-10-03T03:35:00.003+08:00

maybe you threw me high in the sky and im still hoping for you to catch me, but im so called hanging in the sky? but i know and dont know that you would catch me at the bottom,but you have strings attached to a big metal ball, and i think you want me to to cut it and let you go but...

whats this feeling?
am i into you?
i know that you want my attention.
maybe its just that you want from me?
nothing more?
shessssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssh!

maybe the next time we meet i will know?
see you in a weeks time,cant wait(hehe)

see!a year plus being single,this is whats happening in this mixed up mind of mine.

bye
get lost

2008-10-02T12:40:00.002+08:00

hello readers out there, im here to wish all muslim readers selamat hari raya. see the pictures? why only one? i dont know, but i know i slept almost half of the day, cause i didnt sleep the day before.
more pictures will be uploaded soon i guess.see,susu too wants to celebrate hari raya,but too bad susu,you are scared of the outdoors.. see.. talking crap.. hahaha

just in case you want to know.. i got gpa of 3 for my first term!
weeeeeeeeeee... sweettttttttttttttttt
=)))))))))))))))))))))

2008-09-24T02:58:00.000+08:00

tp or nyp? i have a higher chance in nyp..hmmmmmmmm

2008-09-20T02:56:00.003+08:00

take note, this is going to be a sad post, so buzz off if you hate sad post.

since i had nothing to do just now, after webcaming with a long lost lover.*kening naik2*, i decided to bloghopping(which means go to random blogs), then i went to my beloved "boncet" beng's blog and click on "Zareeza", as i click it, i look at her profile picture, then i remembered, " isnt this the bestfriend of the late rakinah?" so i browse through her links and saw rakinah's link and decided to read her blog, i know its been a few months but when i read her last post, it makes me sad that zareeza had to lose a bestfriend at a young age.

rakinah is a simple girl,she was a schoolmate of mine at east view sec,she took 'O' levels too,and she got great marks as i was told by another close of of mine,oh how she could succed in the future.i cant imagine losing a close friend whom i have known for years.i have yet to exprience it, and i dont want to,not now.i can understand what zareeza feels right now,empty,as she said in her blog "another half of her is lost".losing a bestfriend is the worse thing someone could exprience.

another friend whom i just knew this year too, was quite close to her too, and i guess he took it hard too,he would be devastated,to be in his shoes right now,the feeling is worse than breaking up as you know that you cant do anything about it,be strong,to you know who you are.

in case you dont know who she is, shes the one beside the spongebob ballon,

Al-fatihah.

ee

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do

2008-09-18T04:02:00.001+08:00

exactly 29 days from this day!

see ya!

2008-09-17T05:22:00.003+08:00

OOOOOOOOOOOO
OOOOOOOOOOOOO
OOOOOOOOOOOOO
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

get it? you will. haha

2008-09-14T17:13:00.001+08:00

i see friends fighting, i see no one replying

oh well, people are busy with thier lives,so why care ?
let this be the downfall of us.take care

2008-09-14T01:25:00.003+08:00

im afraid, afraid of what the future holds for me, nothing is clear.

i see friends slowly fighting against each other. is this the end??

i hope it doesnt end here. for myself, i really dont know if i could make it on my own. im not getting any younger, and i dont want to follow in the footsteps of some pakcik or apek who cant even feed himself. well, im turning a year older in 5 months. not that far uh?hahaha,no more being a teenager ait?

on a happier note,my beloved football club, liverpool, beat our rivals, man u. hahahahahaha, i just love seeing the face on my brother's face when his team lost,berbatov? haha you were good,for the first 5 mins! hahaha!

oh well, you see, holidays are here and my post are getting crapier day by day!

buka with classmates at beach road =D

2008-09-13T02:03:00.003+08:00

dear oh dear,nothing is really making sense nowadays,i hope you understand what im doing,for the best for you and not me.dont fall to the same situation as i did a year ago.take care

like ali said, thats life for you..

holidays are fuckkkking here people! and after just two days, i feel bored already! luckily i found a job to occupy my time.

so another day with star & kel, at first we slacked around ernyvoid,and due to the time moving soooo slow that if we wait till buka, i would have a beard.so star suggested that we head to OCH,so we were like alright anything goes.then we thought to ourself,it just stop raining,surely the floors will be wet and the place will be so muddy and there is nothing there,so another idea poped up! kel suggested that we took a random bus and head to wear the bus would take us! so we took the bus 28 and headed to toa payoh,yes,nothing better to do ah? oh well,no life mah!haha,then we headed back to tamp while i head back home, and the time was like 645? yeah, so swee swee for breaking fast? haha and yeah, i saw cassandra on my way home, didnt expect her to say hi to me. that was my friday for you my people!

would people still recognize me if i look like this? hmmm haha

2008-09-06T15:50:00.004+08:00

East Coast Team Building(290808)

2008-09-02T21:50:00.002+08:00

i feel that the human brain or mind or whatever is that we use to judge someone is sometimes or most of the time not fair. and i have been victim to this kind if thinking by a few people i know. why dont people judge the person in the present while they judge the person for what they are in the past? lets say for an example, this someone used to be a two faced person and making use of his or her friends, while realising his or her mistakes, he or she changed for the better, but being known for his or her ugly past, meeting up with new friends would be like climbing mount everest, which means that people would still judge the old person rather than the current person.and i tell you, no one is perfect,as i been both a criminal and victim of this kind of thinking, i must that everyone deserve a chance to prove him or herself. everyone deserve a second chance dont they?

on the other hand, i had a busy week last week,yes,get it? and i met a lot of my friends whom i havent seen for months,yes,for it is nice to see them again.but still there are a few whom i have yet to see, like dot & dot & dot..oh well, some other time then.

events i had last week
-Friday,Team Building,East Coast
-Saturday,Baybeats,With Guss & Lan
-Sunday?
-Monday,Start Of Fasting Month,Sending Someone Away
-Tuesday?Is NOW!

ok,i upload the pictures as soon as i get them alright? till here,i have to get ready for my final year exams,'O' Levels and finding a job(not sure whether mad jack still wants me or not).
take care..

I Miss;
HBT
COS
Bestbuddy
Mel
Deedee
YOU

=D

2008-09-02T01:48:00.002+08:00

But still 17.. hmmmmm hahahaha!

2008-08-28T02:38:00.002+08:00

The colder the night gets,
The further she strays.
And he doesn't like it,
Being this way.
And she tried so hard to steer away from the meeting place,
But her heart had led her there.

She clings to his consciousness,
Wherever he lays.
He struggles to sleep at night and during the day.
He's worried she's waiting in his dreams to drag him back to the meeting place.
His love had left him there.

Where her voice still echoes,
I'm sorry I met you darling,
I'm sorry I met you.
As she turned into the night, all he has was the words,
I'm sorry I met you darling,
I'm sorry I left you.

For weeks they had strolled around,
Playing the fools.
They knew the time would come and time would be cruel
Because it is cruel to everyone
He's crying out from the meeting place
He's stranded himself there

Where her voice still echoes,
I'm sorry I met you darling,
I'm sorry I met you.
As she turned into the night, all he has was the words,
I'm sorry I met you darling,
I'm sorry I left you.

2008-08-26T19:28:00.002+08:00

to whom it may concern,
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0wA-plEynHI
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sn1CoTJtHcY
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jsX_xUwnJt8
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MpZGp8k1Vxs

how about another try guys?it wouldnt hurt to give it another shot? =D

2008-08-19T23:46:00.003+08:00

hates the pests that is in your house? wish you could have the balls to kill it without having to touch it? well dont worry, all your problems could be solve with just one easy call!

1900-susu-kills-pests

this cat runs like a horse,jump like a frog and has no mercy on its victims.

here is the list of victims susu has taken down

lizards

beetles

ants

cockroach

hadi's hairy leg

dont regret,call to get a special bonus, susu guards your house too.call now!

2008-08-18T00:12:00.003+08:00

so like 1/4 of hbt went for the tamp-pasir ris-changi-east coast cycling trip.overall it was enjoyable,no accident occured(alhamdulilah).the best part of the trip was when it started to rain,so as there was no shelter for like how many miles, we speeded off so fast that when the rain came down on us,it was as though rocks were being thrown to us, and a bit more disadvantage for me because i was the only one not wearing spec makes it harder for me to cycle.when we reached east coast,we had our lunch and soon after that rested for a while, then we cycle back the same route we came.it could be much better if all of the HBT were there,next time maybe?

i have an answer to your lovely question
but im not ready to face another downfall in my life
like you say,wounds will slowly heal
and hopefully im the cure to that big wound

2008-08-12T20:59:00.002+08:00

i just had to post this,nice bike.haha

2008-08-12T20:34:00.002+08:00

what if i had tution for my maths & science last year,will i get the same results i had now?
what if i had not fallen in love with her,would i get the same results i had now?
what i had studied with that group instead of that group,would i get the same results i had now?
finally,what if i had not fallen sick during my maths paper 2 and at least finished the paper,would i get the same results i had now?

if you still cant figure out what im talking about,im talking about my 'O' level results you dumbdumb.well,whats the use of crying over a spilled milk?is that right?i think so.well,thats my life,need to do it twice.dont tell me that i have to serve NS two times,marry two time(siapa tak nak kan? *kening naik2* hahahaha!) and live two times! wooooo!ok,too much cartoon.hopefully i will do well and insyallah i will get into poly,that will clear a major doubt over my heavy shoulder,wait,that doesnt sound right,again.oh well.counting down to the days i will be a free man,again,de ja vu my friends?well.it does ring a bell and i hope when the door opens up,an angel will be there(tu da nak mati giler).oh you get what i mean.
well guys,off to suffering land.

this song is about being lazy,enjoy!

I sold my soul for the second time
'Cause the man He don't pay me
I begged my landlord for some more time
He said "Son, the bills are waiting"
My best friend called me the other night
He said "Man - are you crazy"
My girlfriend told me to get a life
She said "Boy - you're lazy"
But I don't mind
As long as there's a bed beneath the stars that shine
I'll be fine, if you give me a minute, a man's got a limit
I can't get a life if my heart's not in it
Hey Hey

I don't mind
As long as there's a bed beneath the stars that shine
I'll be fine, if you give me a minute, a man's got a limit
I can't get a life if my heart's not in it
Hey Hey

I lost my faith in the summer time
'Cause it don't stop raining
The sky all day is as black as night
But I'm not complaining
I begged my doctor for one more line
He said "Son - words fail me"
It ain't no place to be killing time
I guess, I'm just lazy

BUT I don't mind
As long as there's a bed beneath the stars that shine
I'll be fine, if you give me a minute, a man's got a limit
I can't get a life if my heart's not in it
Hey Hey

being away from you something you are used to is nice,
but dont push it,it might fade away from you instantly,
being somewhere that you love most will sometimes open up bad faces,
so be away and there,try to balance and it will stay as you like it,forever.

2008-08-11T01:56:00.002+08:00

08.08.08
for my national day celebration, we headed to ite yishun(yes,i cant quite understand).our event was the concert,i cant recall the group's name but they played the drums to a nice beat.but too bad their performance had to be cut short as the concert started late.then the students from the school sang some songs which is related to the national day.nothing interesting after that,had our lunch at KFC,went prayers and headed home.
09.08.08
work with salihin in the morning,then headed back home to get myself ready to go out again,was planning to meet majid at "tak tau mane nie majid nk pegi", but in the end i called salihin and he said he was at fort canning park,as i was on the way to meet him and his friends,the fireworks show was already on and too bad i watched it alone,yes,alone.hahahaha sedih pe..then met up with salihin and his friends,slack for a while then headed back home.this is the most boring national i had.well,there is a next year right? haha.

oh! not forgetting, happy 43th birthday singapore(aku tau la aku lambat sikit)
(note:i will upload the pictures soon,if i have it..haha)

maybe your different from what i think?
or maybe you cant seem to care?
how can i know?can i know?please?

2008-08-04T01:06:00.002+08:00

isnt the weekend for me to take a break while the weekdays for me to prepare myself for the major exam? yes dumbass! but im doing it the other way round? i need to discipline myself god damn,time is not waiting for me and i really need to do whats best for me right now.no bgr,no lepaking,no unecessary outings on weekdays.no more.

things changing between us?or is it me just being too paranoid?i dont know,but i see a huge change.maybe i did something?or something that i didnt do?i know you still need time & who doesnt?after a huge incident,i get it right now,maybe you could at least open up?maybe im just being too fast?its not good to keep things inside of you,it will eat you slowly.

and what time is it right now?who cares?im going to sleep now.byeee! =D

2008-08-02T03:40:00.000+08:00

it august and its time to blast forward in fast mode as i could imagine, i dont know what to post so you could just do anything and why are you still reading this?oh well..

2008-07-30T00:54:00.005+08:00

do you have that feeling that you want to achieve something but have no one to find the answers for you?
do you feel like changing your life but dont know where to start?
do you feel that you dont care about the world and just want to live life and ignore all the problems that is affecting you?
do you feel that you have nothing to commit to and you feel alone in this big world?
do you feel that your mindset is not set to live the real world and worries about it but doesnt seem to care?
do you ever feel that you are just there just to feel the empty space?
do you feel that you are not responsible about your life?
do you feel that there are people around you but none that you could look up to?
do you feel that people around you are looking down on you and stepping on you from all corners and there is nowhere to hide?

thats that.

pictures from the shesha trip with griffiths mates,

2008-07-27T22:52:00.002+08:00

i want to play my dusty keyboard again but i have lost all the knowledge on how to play it, i still remember how to play the major chords, but i want to start from scratch, anyone have any ideas where i could learn,without paying any cash?haha.the last time i played it was when the smudge was still alive and a friend of mine...........ask to play hey jude by the beatles.then.the rest no need to know.haha.

2008-07-24T00:50:00.004+08:00

i'll make things a bit different,i would tell you my dreams in pictures?hows that?if you could figure it out, there will be a gift for you(macam betol je)have fun guessing!

2008-07-22T23:17:00.003+08:00

PLEASE PAUSE THE SONG ON YOUR LEFT & ENJOY THIS SONG.thanks.i know its a old song but it doesn't seem to be outdated.to me.enjoy

Sometimes, I feel the fear of uncertainty stinging clear
And I can't help but ask myself how much
I'll let the fear take the wheel and steer.
It's driven me before, and it seems to have a vague,
Haunting mass appeal.
But lately I'm beginning to find that I
Should be the one behind the wheel.

Whatever tomorrow brings,
I'll be there with open arms and open eyes, Yeah
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there..I'll be there.

So, if I decide to waiver my chance to be one of the hive
Will I choose water over wine and hold my own and drive?
Aah-ah-oo-o-o.

It's driven me before and it seems to be the way
That everyone else gets around.
But lately I'm beginning to find that when
I drive myself my light is found.

Whatever tomorrow brings,
I'll be there with open arms and open eyes, Yeahhh
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there...I'll be there.

Would you choose water over wine....hold the wheel and drive?

Whatever tomorrow brings,
I'll be there with open arms and open eyes, Yeah
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there..I'll be there.
Do do do do do do do do do do do
Ohh wa oh
Do do do do do do do do do do do
Ohh wa oh

2008-07-14T01:08:00.003+08:00

tommorow is monday and i hate monday for a few reasons, class starts at 8 and there will always be traffic jams at a junction which is on my way to school, but the thing is, i have never been late. -_______________-"

i think i have a curse of always coming first or early. moving on...........

this really bugs me and i think i really need to let this out because i really wonder why teenagers,especially guys,who are on the way to 18,have this fucking stupid mindset,and i think they need a reality check,seriously.i dont know why to this majority that riding a bicycle is not cool,when i ride my bike around and i see a friend,who is on the way to 18 or is already 18,this line which 97% of them would come out of thier narrow minds "kau hadi, kau da 19 masih naik basikal,kental sah,biler nak amek motor?" as i have no time to argue about this narrow minded words,i would just smile and laugh along with them.let me say what i think of your mindset alright guys? let me ask you,what so fucking cool about getting a motor at a young age?for transport? for girls looking at you?i dont think we teenagers would stop there,the majority would go out late at night and go where?i know you have the answer to that, and lets see,recent survey said that the age where people die of motor accidents says that the majority group age is 18-25.so are you telling me that dying fast would make you cool?and let me ask you,if you dont have money and you cant fucking afford a bike,what would you use if you cant move your lazy butt around?i dont to answer to that too.i think you would have the answer too.well,thats my thoughts,i hope you have something better you say.

nothing related to the subject above,i went around reading a few of my friend's blog and i notice a problem which i too faced a few years ago.let me tell you right now right here,secondary school life is one of the best moments i had in my entire life so far.and i must say that i really really really really....(ok you get it).. miss secondary school life! minus the morning assembly and mr ee 's long boring speech,everything about secondary school life is priceless.and whats so priceless about it is your friends,and i dont mean the friends you just know,its the friends whom would stick with you through bad times and good times.im blessed with friends like that."secondary school friends gonna come & go", do you believe in this sentence? i dont think that ALL secondary friends are like that,the friends i hang out with right now are my secondary schools friends, even though we sometimes dont see eye to eye in school,we still would find each other,cause theres a thing call handphone! haha,but if you want to justify that line,wait till you finish secondary school life,then your TRUE secondary school friends would show up, and im proud to say that i have friends who have been with me for 7 years,3 years and another one whom i have known her for 4 years. so appericate the friends you have in secondary school,it may be the last time you would see them in school.

out of the 9 in the picture,im still and will be close to four of them

2008-07-09T01:19:00.002+08:00

yes, i was also scared to see my own blog, not scared, geli.. whats the word?(kata je english B3).. ok nevermind..

so people.. how are you? school just reopened a few days ago and i tell you, the first day was like dragging my whole body to school, headed to school, stoned,feeling high, and eyes half open. i know.. you are yawing reading this..

and yes people! my hair is fucking short like the secondary school kids you see! at least not slope.. hahaha but short damn it.. now i regret.. nevermind la.. hair grows..(nie part kan.. siapa tag aku pasal bapak aku.. jage korang..)
so yeah..some say i look totally different and some say i look neat.. neat? hahahahaha! i dont think soo..my head looks rounder than before.. but like i say, hair grows.. dont worry.. i have a secret weapon *wink2*.. i know that people will laugh at my new hair.. oh well.. i have to wait and see..

oh well,thats all..tag people.. and ni'mah.. please clean up the mess you made.. thank you..

Imagine By John Lennon

Imagine there's no heaven
It's easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people
Living for today...

Imagine there's no countries
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace...

You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one

Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world...

You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will live as one