do you have that feeling that you want to achieve something but have no one to find the answers for you?
do you feel like changing your life but dont know where to start?
do you feel that you dont care about the world and just want to live life and ignore all the problems that is affecting you?
do you feel that you have nothing to commit to and you feel alone in this big world?
do you feel that your mindset is not set to live the real world and worries about it but doesnt seem to care?
do you ever feel that you are just there just to feel the empty space?
do you feel that you are not responsible about your life?
do you feel that there are people around you but none that you could look up to?
do you feel that people around you are looking down on you and stepping on you from all corners and there is nowhere to hide?

thats that.

pictures from the shesha trip with griffiths mates,

i want to play my dusty keyboard again but i have lost all the knowledge on how to play it, i still remember how to play the major chords, but i want to start from scratch, anyone have any ideas where i could learn,without paying any cash?haha.the last time i played it was when the smudge was still alive and a friend of mine...........ask to play hey jude by the beatles.then.the rest no need to know.haha.

i'll make things a bit different,i would tell you my dreams in pictures?hows that?if you could figure it out, there will be a gift for you(macam betol je)have fun guessing!

PLEASE PAUSE THE SONG ON YOUR LEFT & ENJOY THIS SONG.thanks.i know its a old song but it doesn't seem to be outdated.to me.enjoy

Sometimes, I feel the fear of uncertainty stinging clear
And I can't help but ask myself how much
I'll let the fear take the wheel and steer.
It's driven me before, and it seems to have a vague,
Haunting mass appeal.
But lately I'm beginning to find that I
Should be the one behind the wheel.

Whatever tomorrow brings,
I'll be there with open arms and open eyes, Yeah
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there..I'll be there.

So, if I decide to waiver my chance to be one of the hive
Will I choose water over wine and hold my own and drive?
Aah-ah-oo-o-o.

It's driven me before and it seems to be the way
That everyone else gets around.
But lately I'm beginning to find that when
I drive myself my light is found.

Whatever tomorrow brings,
I'll be there with open arms and open eyes, Yeahhh
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there...I'll be there.

Would you choose water over wine....hold the wheel and drive?

Whatever tomorrow brings,
I'll be there with open arms and open eyes, Yeah
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there..I'll be there.
Do do do do do do do do do do do
Ohh wa oh
Do do do do do do do do do do do
Ohh wa oh

tommorow is monday and i hate monday for a few reasons, class starts at 8 and there will always be traffic jams at a junction which is on my way to school, but the thing is, i have never been late. -_______________-"

i think i have a curse of always coming first or early. moving on...........

this really bugs me and i think i really need to let this out because i really wonder why teenagers,especially guys,who are on the way to 18,have this fucking stupid mindset,and i think they need a reality check,seriously.i dont know why to this majority that riding a bicycle is not cool,when i ride my bike around and i see a friend,who is on the way to 18 or is already 18,this line which 97% of them would come out of thier narrow minds "kau hadi, kau da 19 masih naik basikal,kental sah,biler nak amek motor?" as i have no time to argue about this narrow minded words,i would just smile and laugh along with them.let me say what i think of your mindset alright guys? let me ask you,what so fucking cool about getting a motor at a young age?for transport? for girls looking at you?i dont think we teenagers would stop there,the majority would go out late at night and go where?i know you have the answer to that, and lets see,recent survey said that the age where people die of motor accidents says that the majority group age is 18-25.so are you telling me that dying fast would make you cool?and let me ask you,if you dont have money and you cant fucking afford a bike,what would you use if you cant move your lazy butt around?i dont to answer to that too.i think you would have the answer too.well,thats my thoughts,i hope you have something better you say.

nothing related to the subject above,i went around reading a few of my friend's blog and i notice a problem which i too faced a few years ago.let me tell you right now right here,secondary school life is one of the best moments i had in my entire life so far.and i must say that i really really really really....(ok you get it).. miss secondary school life! minus the morning assembly and mr ee 's long boring speech,everything about secondary school life is priceless.and whats so priceless about it is your friends,and i dont mean the friends you just know,its the friends whom would stick with you through bad times and good times.im blessed with friends like that."secondary school friends gonna come & go", do you believe in this sentence? i dont think that ALL secondary friends are like that,the friends i hang out with right now are my secondary schools friends, even though we sometimes dont see eye to eye in school,we still would find each other,cause theres a thing call handphone! haha,but if you want to justify that line,wait till you finish secondary school life,then your TRUE secondary school friends would show up, and im proud to say that i have friends who have been with me for 7 years,3 years and another one whom i have known her for 4 years. so appericate the friends you have in secondary school,it may be the last time you would see them in school.

out of the 9 in the picture,im still and will be close to four of them

yes, i was also scared to see my own blog, not scared, geli.. whats the word?(kata je english B3).. ok nevermind..

so people.. how are you? school just reopened a few days ago and i tell you, the first day was like dragging my whole body to school, headed to school, stoned,feeling high, and eyes half open. i know.. you are yawing reading this..

and yes people! my hair is fucking short like the secondary school kids you see! at least not slope.. hahaha but short damn it.. now i regret.. nevermind la.. hair grows..(nie part kan.. siapa tag aku pasal bapak aku.. jage korang..)
so yeah..some say i look totally different and some say i look neat.. neat? hahahahaha! i dont think soo..my head looks rounder than before.. but like i say, hair grows.. dont worry.. i have a secret weapon *wink2*.. i know that people will laugh at my new hair.. oh well.. i have to wait and see..

oh well,thats all..tag people.. and ni'mah.. please clean up the mess you made.. thank you..

Imagine By John Lennon


Imagine there's no heaven
It's easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people
Living for today...

Imagine there's no countries
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace...

You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one

Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world...

You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will live as one

slowly things starting to pick up
and everything is coming together
i will listen to the best
while ignoring the worst
and the best part is
its still a long way to go

5 year old kid playing drum as skilled as a 50 year old?
it sounds amazing isnt it?
but do you think it sounds weird too?
im not saying that its wrong that the kid is good at it but..
is it too fast?
i dont know about you but i think all the children this days are growing up too fast and thats not right.
lets compare my primary school days with the modern day kids now

lifestlye,
me:with specs and still learning to spell huge english words and have no idea what is sex or love
kids now days:contacts lens and learning "huge"(words that kids thier age
should not know) and doing sex and falling in and out of love

gadgets,
me:i dont have any fancy gadgets and i can tel you that the only fancy gadgets that i have was the small tv i had in my living room,not even the gameboy(yes,i played the gameboy when i was in pri 6,aku tau la..lambat)
kids now days:ipod with huge earphones blasting with loud songs and hp that is more expensive than what is mine and my dad's

im not saying that all kids are like this but from what im seeing,the numbers are not dropping.they say that the children is the future.from what i see the future is going to be a dark one,and whos the blame?teachers?parents?i hope when i have children,they wont be like this(ceh! da pikir pasal anak lak aku nie).

this video has nothing to do with the post, i just like the song.enjoy!


what time is it? 6am? i should sleep!